sometimes, when it's late at night and I have homework to do, I like to look in my journal for things I've written and post them on my blog.

So here are the last four things I wrote in my journal:

All I can do is speak in abstract sentences designed to be meaningful to one person at a time.

April 22
I stepped into the shower alone and turned it on full blast. For a moment, the molecules displaced by the waterpressure filled the shower with his delicious scent, but soon it was washed away.

April 23
I laid in my bed this afternoon, naked, reading Ferlinghetti outloud to myself and looking out the window. No matter how busy I am, I try to do something equally holistic everyday. I think it might be the key to my positive attitude.

A conversation with my friend Ryan
(I fake punch him in the shoulder and he jumps back, wary of my fist)
"Oh! Don't be scared! No matter what I did, I probably couldn't ever hurt you"
"You know, I think you're right"
"See?"
"I can scratch you off my list of like twelve thousand people."
"I'm glad I can be that person for you"
(laughing)
"You're kinda like a blanket"
"Exactly!! That's exactly what I try to be...everybody's blanket!"